In my experience the most important thing we can do in our spiritual journey/healing is to process all the old emotions/feelings/past hurts/fears that we have trapped inside of us. When we fully feel what we have been afraid to face, then we are free.
When in 3D this can be a hard slog. There are lots of tears, emotions, heartache, resistance, discomfort..... until we get to the other side of what we so afraid to face, and feel the freedom and lightness.
I have found that the more I process, the easier it gets. Processing recently is just a recognition of some repeated thoughts or triggers, and gently going deeper, going under these thoughts and judgements and repeating events, seeing things from different angles and bringing love and understanding to myself for the part I played in all of the events.
Whereas 10+ years ago, I would need to re-live the experiences, confront people, experience months and months of healing sessions, lots of tears and emotions and anger, and take baby steps towards resolution - it was really hard.
This week I had a new experience again. Instead of processing my fear, I just reviewed it.
For most of my adult life I have been very afraid of driving on steep roads. I avoid driving up or down people's steep driveways where ever I can and go the "long way" to avoid the steep winding roads that lead to many of the suburbs where I live. I don't seem to mind if someone else is driving, it just a fear that surfaces when I am behind the wheel of the car.
A few days ago I had to drop my son off at a friends house. I picked him up from school and then asked him what his friend's address was. The suburb was at the top of my most dreaded windy road (if you live in Adelaide, then I had to drive from Unley to Belair). This is only a 10 minute drive but it was my worst nightmare. We were running late so I couldn't go around the "long way", I just had to buckle up and drive! I felt unsettled, was gripping the steering wheel hard and was driving really slowly. We made it to the top of the hill, but I wasn't going to drive to the bottom of the very steep driveway, so my son had to unload his drum kit and walk it piece by piece down the steep hill to the house. I sat in the car while him and his friends set up the kit and contemplated my fear of steep driving. I googled it and found out that Bathmophobia is a fear of stairs and slopes. This didn't really sound like me, as I was only afraid of driving on steep roads if I was the driver. I realised I had developed this fear due to past driving experiences. I just gently contemplated this and felt a large energy around and in me. The interesting thing for me was that I didn't have any physical reaction to this energy, I could just feel its presence. It was my energy. I knew I was processing this fear, but not in the usual way. I wasn't feeling the emotion, I was just reviewing the fear. About 10 minutes later I drove down the hill without any problems but the energy stayed with me for a couple of hours. It was intense but did not have any affect on my body, there were no tears or anger or any other usual sign of processing. I just sat with this. And then it left. I knew I was now OK to drive up the hill.
Two days later I drove my son back up the hill to his friend's house for band practice. I enjoyed the drive. I went fast (within the speed limit) and curved around the corners having a lovely time.
I don't think we have to go digging around for things to process or review. They just come up in our daily life when we need to deal with them. We do have to be aware of the repeated thought patterns or triggers that happen, and then gently look deeper. It doesn't have to be difficult anymore. We can evolve to a point where we are processing/reviewing and experiencing constantly.
We shouldn't have any things in our life that we are afraid of, don't really like, or avoid doing. We can tell ourselves that we have good reason to not want to do these things, but having these restrictions always sets up boundaries for our growth. When they come up, we just need to recognise them and then be gentle with ourselves while we overcome/process/review them.
My dreams of tsunamis have continued this year.
To me the tsunami represents the power of the shift/event/change that we are going through as we evolve out of 3D. It represents what is happening TO us, in regards to what new energy/possibility is available, but it also represents what is happening WITHIN us.
These tsunami dreams have shown me where my fears still lay regarding being willing to evolve and change and transition into a new being. In the early years of these dreams I would either be high up (on a mountain and cliff) and watch while others were consumed by the tsunami. Or I would be trying to find ways to escape or save my family. More recently the tsunami waves in the dreams have hit me and those around me so quickly and suddenly we didn't have time to run or execute an escape plan. And when we did get hit by the wave our lives changed. I felt the power and force of the wave and it absorbed into me, letting me know that I had nothing to fear.
This week I had another tsunami dream. This time I saw the wave developing just off shore. I was standing on the beach with people I knew swimming, body surfing and enjoying the beach. I saw the wave forming, getting larger and larger, and willingly dove into the water so I could ride this massive wave. It felt amazing to be up so high feeling the power of the wave. I realised that the wave would have to crash onto the beach at some point and I was deciding if I wanted to "ride" the wave as it crashed onto the beach or if I would prefer to swim out of the wave out the back towards the ocean. I woke up from this dream while I was still deliberating what to do.
I was glad that I decided to embrace the wave and move towards it instead of running. Maybe I have conquered enough fears of the "shift" and evolution to be open to receiving the power of the energy/wave. Although I am not quite sure why I was deliberating the next step. Do we really need to crash into the beach or is it OK to just float out the back way and avoid the messiness and tumbling as the wave hits the earth.
I guess time will show me (or another tsunami dream will show me the way).
This week I had a dream. In the dream was helping a friend who's teenage son had changed. My friend was worried he was on drugs or something because he seemed different and she couldn't relate to him. So I volunteered to see what I could find out. My search took me to a "place" where people were voluntarily hooked up to different types of pipes, and thick substances (like mashed potato or mashed watermelon consistency and colour) were being pumped into their bodies while they lay quietly. There were people who were helping them get hooked up. Everything was voluntary.
I reported back to my friend a few times while I found out more information. In order to find out even more I volunteered to be hooked up to the pipes. While the thick substances were going in I felt so peaceful and amazing. During the process my friend wanted an update, so I unplugged from the pipes and went and saw her. Half of me was full of the new substance and half of me wasn't - it was extremely painful physically in the places that were empty. I could still have a meaningful conversation with my friend and understand her viewpoint, I could also now have meaningful conversations with the people who were going through the process with the pipes and also the ones who had completed the process.
As I headed back to the place with the pipes to be completely filled up, my dream ended.
This is how I feel in my life. Half new human, and half old human and feeling the effects physically. While my reality (the view of the world I create) seems to be much more new human than old, my physical body is lagging behind. I am voluntarily wanting to be filled up with the new energy etc, but there are still parts of my physical body which don't seem to taking up the new very easily. I suspect some of the old stuff (energy, beliefs, emotions etc) is hard to budge from these places in my body.
Maybe when we are filled up with the new, and we become new humans physically, then we won't be able to relate to the old - just like my friend in the dream could not relate to her son anymore. The consequences of this could be something that holds us back, especially if we are not sure about how our loved ones will handle any changes that we go through.
I suspect it will just happen organically, We won't have to make any big changes to cut people out of our lives or set boundaries, or upset people, as we just organically fade away from some people, and other people or places organically fade away from us. We could almost become invisible, so we are not causing upset or distress for anyone, as we just aren't a factor for them, as they are not a factor for us.
It may also depend on the amount of new energy that a physical body has transformed within them as to how we relate to others. If there is only a small difference between the amount of new energy that two people hold, then we get along just fine. If there is a big difference, then we just aren't on each other's radar.
For me the physical body is a major focus at the moment. Diet, movement, sleep are all changing constantly as the body goes through so many changes. I am very highly tuned to my body and what it needs in every moment, and I think this helps a lot through this transition.
Last weekend I went on a tour with my daughter of an art school that she is thinking about attending. This art school is located in a building that was once a “lunatic asylum”. It is a beautiful historic building, carefully restored and renovated, with an interesting history.
The guided tour we joined had a mix of people who were interested in the history of the building, and people who were interested in attending the art school. During the tour we heard a lot about the activities and functions of the old asylum. There were people on the tour asking lots of questions about the goings on of the asylum with lots of “torturous” stories they seem proud to share. It made us feel uncomfortable.
When I tuned into the energy of the building it felt fantastic. I could see a type of overlay that the art school had brought to the building. The art school had literally covered the past, not in a creepy suppressive way, but in an evolutionary way. The past has finished, that cycle for this building has ended and a new one has begun.
Unfortunately, the questions being asked by the people on the tour were dredging up the past, through the overlay, and into peoples consciousnesses. It seemed really unnecessary, heavy and not at all what we in new earth need to be doing.
I was happy to acknowledge the buildings history and marvel in the old architecture, but more excited to see it move forward rather than sink my consciousness into the dying ground of old earth and connect strongly with the old history. Because I have processed so much of my past, it is much easier for me to process the past of the world around me. I don’t need to feel it and re-live it anymore (either within me or around me). It is time to move on just like this building has happily moved on.
This overlay image that I received when tuning into the building is applicable for the whole planet. New Earth feels like an overlay of new energies, new realities and new possibilities. Unfortunately, many people are still dredging up the old earth even though it doesn’t exist anymore. This now requires a lot of energy to reach down through the new earth overlay, and into old earth to still live by its rules and constraints, and it is probably why it is so much harder for people to do this and makes them feel so uncomfortable and unsettled.
It is time to let old earth go, to let the past dissolve so that we can step up onto the new earth overlay that is ready and waiting for us to acknowledge it, use it, live in it, flourish in it. Just like the old building, we are re-purposing the rooms for our new earth needs and making very good use of the infrastructure that was already there, re-imagining what it could be used for, adding new sections for our comfort and ease and seeing the old in a much-needed new light.
Just because something has always been done a certain way, does not apply now. This new earth overlay is here, ready and waiting for us to find new ways.
For many years I have had dreams about Tsunamis. Huge walls of water that hit either my home city, places my family and I are vacationing or fictional places that I happen to be staying at in my dreams. Every dream is fearful, and I frantically try and save my children and take them to safety although I am not successful.
About a month ago I had another dream about a Tsunami. In the dream my family and I had just moved into a new beach house in a town not far from our city. This was going to be a vacation home for us. I took a short walk down to the beach and noticed a strange "freak" wave coming at me from the side of the beach. I scrambled up the nearby sandhills and just avoided being swept away by the wave, then another wave came at me from the other side of the beach. I ran back to the safety of the house telling my family of my narrow escape and the strange behaviour of the waves. We all stood out the front of the house looking towards the ocean and then a huge wall of water just came out of nowhere and hit us at full speed. There was no time to run, no time to be afraid, we just had to surrender and accept our fate no matter what it was.
As soon as the water hit us it disappeared and turned into a trickle around our feet. It was almost as if we had absorbed the power of the wave and as soon as it hit us, it lost all of its power and ceased to exist. We looked at each other in disbelief. Were we dead? How could we possibly have survived the impact of that wave and force of nature?
We went inside still not sure if we were dead of not, and joking about it. I noticed in the living room that a part of the wall had disappeared. Doors that were once in a certain place had moved. Again, all we could do was laugh and summise that we had all died and that this was our new home and our new reality now, where ever this was and what ever had happened to us. We had no choice, we couldn't go back, this was our reality now. So we went about our normal activities.
I dreamed that my son and I went outside and looked up into the sky. The sky was not blue anymore, but a yellow colour with repeated geometric shapes all over the sky, like a cool retro wallpaper had replaced our old blue sky. Again we laughed and agreed we were not living in our old earth anymore. I then woke up from the dream, and nothing in my waking life has been the same since.....
Once I recognised that every other tsunami dream I experienced, was one where I was running from the power of the wave, I realised this was me running from my own power. In this latest dream I did not (could not) run and once I surrended to the wave I absorbed its power and became the same as the force/source from where it came.
Around this time of the dream I had started conversing with a new guide (or aspect of myself, or another higher self) which I write about here. After the dream I started experimenting with merging my physical human aspects with my higher selves. I tried to explain this merging process here.
Something interesting started to happen with my physical body once I focused on merging the higher self aspects with my body which I will try and explain as best I can.
To give you some background, I started seeing my chiropractor again a few months ago for treatments (I have been seeing him on and off for over 11 years and he uses a combination of energy and breath-work called Network Spinal Analysis). All my adult life I have had spine issues. Severe lower back pain, neck issues, chronic severe headaches etc. I have seen many different types of therapists and body workers and had many treatments all of which helped somewhat but nothing has been properly resolved. All these practitioners seem to agree that I have a twisting through my spine including my cocyx. Although I haven't had much pain or too many problems the last few years, I always felt good after a few treatments, so it seemed like a good time to see him again.
I decided it might be fun to merge with my closest higher self (the one that feels most connected to my physical and etheric body) while I was having a chiropractic session (just to see what would happen and it felt like my higher self aspect would enjoy this). The day I merged with my higher self during a chiropractor treatment was the day my spine straightened for the first time!
It was very fortunate that I had come to understand the benefits of physical pain through the evolution process. Because straightening a spine for the first time can be very painful. But it was a joyous, exciting pain and I loved every minute of it. And at its worst the discomfort only lasted a couple of days. About a week later I got the flu and I think this was perfect to keep me as still as possible while the body adjusted. After I recovered from the flu I went for a walk for the first time with a straight spine and it felt like I had a totally different body, walking was a very different experience. The whole right side of my body started tingling and it felt like blood was flowing to places it has never flowed before. I would describe the experience of walking like peddling a bike now, every thing is straight and lined up and I feel light and full of energy when I walk rather than heavy and cumbersome and achy (I have never enjoyed exercise - until now!).
I wanted to share this story for a couple of reasons. There has been much talk about "an event" that is predicted to happen in 2018 which has been described as a wave of energy that hits us and changes us, preparing us for multidimensional life and life on New Earth as New Humans. I have only become aware of this event, and the opinions of others about this, the last few days and can see some similarities with how I have felt since my tsunami dream. I thought I would share my experience to add to the information that is out there already. Please use your own discernment as to what fits with your own unique truth.
If you also experience this wave of energy coming towards you (in whatever form it takes for you), do not be afraid and embrace the energy as much as you can (whether in a dream state or awake). Also, do not see your higher selves, guides, future selves etc as separate anymore. Experiment for yourself and see if you are ready for the physical changes and the possibilities of merging with your higher self aspects. It could be fun!
We all have inner or higher self aspects. I have met my higher selves at various times but only recently connected them all together and started merging with them.
When all inner aspects merge, all higher selves become the physical you. With the authenticity, power and essence of pure soul flowing and linking all together.
By connecting with soul and drawing it into our physical, into our reality and our bodies, we can link and awaken all other higher aspects of us.
Each has a part to play, and each on its own is amazing and unique, but working together with you, can create the New Human we have all been waiting for.
When you eat as your higher aspects want to you eat, when you move and play as your higher aspects want you to, then you become one with these higher aspects. Not a controlling, practical self with an ego who only does things a certain way, you become fluid, changing day to day depending on what your higher aspects are needing.
When all your higher aspects or higher selves are in alignment all wanting the same things, and the physical you comes on board and stays in this alignment as well, everything you have ever dreamed (not thought or shoulded about) comes true. All those deep yearnings and feelings and things you thought were out of reach come to you in experiences and synchronicities. When you are in the flow of your soul and all aspects are joined as one, the magic happens.
You then create your own new reality from within, via the small little steps and urges that are filtered down from your higher aspects into the actionable body.
This is how we can live on new earth with our new human bodies.
When the higher selves merge with the physical body, the body takes on a different shape. It may take on the appearance you always knew it was capable of, or have the strength or flexibility you always dreamed of, you will become the best version of you.
We all have higher self aspects that are just waiting for us to discover, connect to and merge with. We are not giving our power away to an outside source, just an inner source that is waiting to be awakened and invited to inhabit the human form. It has never been easier to do this and is as simple as meditating and inviting your higher self aspects to merge with your physical. Whatever comes up into your awareness just needs to be shifted and acknowledged to make more room for the new you to emerge.
In the last week I have been seeing an increase in flickering lights. This is sometimes just out of the corner of my eye or directly in my vision. These are like flashes of light which are much larger than anything I have seen before. They are largely white light with streaks of colour although they don't last long enough for me to really study them.
I have heard many others seeing an increase in these flashes lately so I thought I would share my theories on what they are and why they are increasing.
These flashes are us being able to see through the illusion of our lives and our realities.
Imagine that the world has a covering, a blanket or a veil which is made up of a certain reality. Some might also call this a matrix. This covering contains all that you are supposed to see, feel, hear etc - it is the reality of the 3rd dimension.
This covering also contains a type of electromagnetic charge which matches with your electromagnetic/nervous system and therefore it keeps your physical reality within this particular reality because they match. Imagine there is a magnet or charge which influences every cell in your body to perform a certain way - your body is connected intricately this covering/matrix which then dictates your reality, your movements and responses.
But we now have the ability to see through the illusion of this covering.
This covering is starting to form cracks and break apart - and this is where the large flashes of light are coming from - the other-side of this covering/blanket. We can now see the possibilities of what lay beyond the 3D reality. This could be referred to as another dimension, another reality or a new earth beyond this blanket or covering.
The flickering is signalling a breakdown of this magnetic veil and as it starts to fall apart we can see the new light coming from what is beyond. As this covering breaks apart so will our bodies, our societial structures and our habits. This is because the covering will not have the same "control" that it had over us, and we will start to make new moves and new decisions. Things may get uncomfortable and messy for awhile but the new light shining through the cracks will point us in the right direction and draw us through to what new reality and new worlds are beyond.
Collective consciousness keeps the status quo. Our habits and humanness keeps people from seeing other possibilities and therefore we aren't often aware of what is beyond this heavy dense covering that influences us so strongly. But if we are willing to crack this open we can see another reality and another earth.
When you see the flickering, just smile and imagine that the cracks are getting bigger. Do not see the flickering as an inconvenience that pulls you away from your reality or what you are doing, see it as a welcome surprise gift that you want to see more of. Know that what is beyond this flickering is a long lasting vision of the new.
This is long awaired and welcome
Imagine that there is bunch of cells. These are the beginnings of a snail. Those cells have an intelligence or a consciousness that directs those cells how to turn into a physical snail, in the same way a human embryo (bunch of cells) needs a human consciousness to tell it how to develop into a human being. It is the consciousness or the "mind" of the physical creature that knows what it is supposed to look like and how it is supposed to function.
When these bunches of cells and the correct consciousness or mind are matched up, then we have our species and we have life on this planet. I know this is an oversimplification of the physical creation process but I am using it as an example to explore the New Human evolution.
We are now in the unique position of evolving while in the same physical body. We are changing "species" from a human to a NEW HUMAN. The old human mind or consciousness does not know how a NEW HUMAN is supposed to look or function and so we need to insert a new mind/consciousness into our beings so that we can change our look and function. Once we have inserted or allowed this higher mind consciousness to take up residence our lower mind can stop trying to run the show and the physical changes can start to implement.
While we are still in the transition stages it can get very tricky and very confusing. We experience body changes and yet it is our lower analytical/logical "thinking with words" minds that we allow to to tell us what is going on and decide on appropriate 'treatments' and solutions to these physical changes. But because the higher mind is driving or allowing these changes to take place, we need to rely on this for our information.
When we revert back to analysis and past experiences for our reference, we are really just using habit and familiar ways to navigate this new adventure. It can be tricky to let this go and "trust" in our new higher consciousness to not only direct the physical changes but to navigate life through these changes. Surrender what you think this process should look and feel like, because our analytical minds actually have no clue. This is new territory and our new minds/consciousness will teach us as we go.
Following on from my last post where I was experimenting with projecting new earth from within me into my environment and anchoring into it, I have continued my experiments and have found that this new earth seems to follow me around. The best way I can describe this at the moment is it is like living in a bubble of higher consciousness/5D reality and everything I see, encounter and am involved in, seems to flow in this higher consciousness and match this new earth reality that is also within me.
Imagine that you turn up to a party at a friends house. As you walk up the driveway you notice someone muttering in frustration at the front door, then you walk inside and see two people arguing in the back yard. You walk up to the host and greet them, remarking how calm and organised everything seems inside their house. They reply in surprise saying that only a few minutes ago everything was chaotic and tense. You notice that the other guests are now all happy and smiling, not frustrated or arguing anymore. You stay at the party all afternoon and everyone is cheerful, funny, and the whole afternoon seems to flow seamlessly. When you feel it is time for you to leave you start to say your goodbyes and notice a few people looking around in frustration for a lost phone as you leave your friends house.
In this example a person who is anchored into their own projection of New Earth seems to bring this reality with them and it influences the people in their environment. It is like a bubble of New Earth encases the friend's house and everyone else in this bubble feels the flow and ease of this higher consciousness and new reality. Before the 5D person arrived at the party there was frustration and anger, and when the 5D person decides to leave, their consciousness also starts to move away and there is again frustration within the guests.
This is how the world will change. When a few individuals can anchor into the New Earth reality that they project from within them, then they carry this with them wherever they go. Everyone in the shopping centre, on the roads, in the schools and workplaces that they encounter will feel the effects. These effects may be temporary while in the viscinity of the 5D person, but as the 5D person becomes more adept at expanding their awareness and influence, more and more people in a wider radius will feel the effects. Soon we will have enough people anchored into their own individual New Earth projection that the whole planet will be flowing and living in this new earth consiousness.
There seems to be a couple of important factors or "rules" that need to be followed if you are to remain in your New Earth Bubble and continue to affect the people you come into contact with.
1. Always be authentic. Your inner truth is what helps project this new earth. If you falter and revert to a self that is responding to the outer world, then the new earth crumbles and you are back in old earth.
2. Honor your needs. If you are tired then take a nap or rest, you cannot uphold the new earth projection when you are tired or need self care.
The last few weeks I have been experimenting and exploring the concept of New Earth. If we assume that we are all evolving into New Humans (well most of us anyway) then does our Earth change as well? And if so, then how does this look and feel? Are we still walking within and amongst other humans who have not yet evolved?
While flicking through the tv channels the other night I watched a few minutes of news stories. I usually don't want the news as it really doesn't interest me anymore, but when I did see some stories about people in my city behaving in a certain way, it seemed really foreign, like it wasn't from the place I lived and inhabited. These sorts of behaviours just aren't in my field of reality, it is not something I ever encounter in my every day life anymore. I did wonder whether it was because of the suburb I chose to live in, maybe that behaviour didn't happen here, but I knew it did, I had heard of it in the past. Then I wondered, did these types of people just decide to stay home or indoors when I was travelling through their area. Does the universe somehow create a space for me where this behaviour does not exist or cross paths with me?
If some of us are living in a 5D world as multi-dimensional beings then how is it that our realities and our world is different when we are still seemingly side by side with people firmly connected to 3D?
I received an answer to these questions.
One night an image of a projector started humming in my chest and was projecting a reality, a world, a movie picture of my life right into my surroundings. My upgraded ears and eyes could now see and hear this newly projected world and participate in it. It was projecting a New Earth reality. If I intened to, I could allow this projector to constantly project the New Earth (from within me) when I thought of many different circumstances happening in my life right now. It was a whole new perspective, a new reality, new answers, a new peace, and new energy running through my body.
I was not projecting my reality from my logical mind, my past, my stored emotions or fears. I was projecting this reality straight from my heart, my soul and from source - from a New Human place.
So when I walk in the world, I am projecting my inner reality into my outer world. Paths do just magically open up, opportunities come to me in perfect timing, things always just turn up. Because this is what I am projecting (from the New Human space within me).
Somehow seeing this projector inside of me just made more sense as to what is happening.
When we focus on our outside reality and let that govern our inner reality (we react to the outside events and then allow this to dictate our emotions and thoughts) then we stay in the old earth as an old human. But when we flick the switch and decide our inner reality, we can project this inner reality into our outer world and it literally feels like we are walking on a New Earth. We can create our New Earth, we can create any experience that we desire that matches what our inner reality is.
This is really difficult for the logical mind to grasp.
I am walking and living in a world that is the same as yours, and yet it is totally my individual projection of my inner world!!
On Christmas Day I put on my special new dress and found it was full of static. Not something I have every had a problem with before so I didn't have any static spray in the house. I googled how to get rid of static and found lots of solutions involving grounding the static electricity. So I walked barefoot on the grass, tried using metal to ground the charge and focussed on grounding with the intent to discharge the electricity. Nothing really seemed to work. Shortly after this I started getting lower back pain. The pain got progressively worse during the day until the next morning I couldn't not even walk it was so excruitiating.
Realising it was linked to my grounding intentions I was made aware that I was grounding into Old Earth (3D earth) and this wasn't a very pleasant experience for me anymore. I spent many hours sitting outside focusing on my projection of the New Earth and then grounding into this New Earth. By the afternoon the back pain had practically gone and over the following days I felt stronger and more stable that I had for a long time.
Once we can project our new reality of new earth into our lives, then we can ground or anchor into this. We may even need to consciously un-anchor from the old 3D earth first. As more of us recognise this new earth, the vibration of this planet will raise and evolve and grow with us, or maybe our mother earth is one step ahead of us, helping us all along the way.
It took a lot of conscious effort initially to remember to project my New Earth reality and then anchor, but after a few days it is happening easily, organically and continuously.
I was recently asked by my Naturopath whether I had a "lack of motivation". She was investigating a flared up thyroid issue that I have from time to time, and apparently "lack of motivation" was one common symptom.
When she asked me this I was suprised that I could not understand the meaning of the word motivation. It was one of those words that seems to disappear when you start to move into a higher timeline/reality/new earth. I explained to her that for the last year or so I only do what I want to, when I want to do it. I have written about this experiment previously.
I realise this is a very strange concept for many people - it sounds selfish and counter productive. But what it really entails is connecting with yourself and checking in with every decision, choice and action and only doing what is truly best for you.
When I considered the concept of motivation through her question, it seemed to be something that we conjur up in order to do something that we truly don't want to do, but feel that we have to do it. It really is a 3D word. We find the energy of motivation from outside of (the reward, outcome etc) and then use this energy to convince ourselves that we NEED to do this thing that we really don't want to do - we just make it happen with force and coercion or whatever means we can find. Motivation in this sense, helps us push ourselves to do things in the 3D world.
When I Googled the meaning of "motivation" this is what I found
"Motivation is the reason for people's actions, desires, and needs. Motivation is also one's direction to behavior, or what causes a person to want to repeat a behavior. A motive is what prompts the person to act in a certain way, or at least develop an inclination for specific behavior"
When looking at this meaning of motivation, I guess my motivation for all my actions and choices is now to fulfill an inner desire or need. The reason for my actions is because it feels good (to me and for me).
In a previous reality (3D) my motivation would have been to fulfill someone else's expectations of me or to meet someone else's needs or to fulfill societies perception of my role.
So to answer the question "do I lack motivation?", well no, I have motivation, just a different motivation (or reason to do things) than I used to.
So many words and concepts in our human lives change when we become a New Human. It can start to be difficult to relate to the old way of doing things, but the new way is so much fun and so much more fulfilling and authentic.
My motivation now, what drives me in my choices and actions, is simply a desire to be my authentic self and to honor my own needs. When I do this, I can offer much more authentic and genuine service to others. Words like sacrifice, obligation and resentment no longer exist in my vocabulary - these only exist when motivation is outside of you (based on a construct that was not of your own making).
Being of service to others is so much more fulfilling, enjoyable and meaningful. I am a much better person, wife, mother and friend when I am acting from my own inner desires and taking care of my needs first. There is a balance in my life of inputs and outputs that creates a greater inner power.
A new human does everything with conscious awareness.
A 3D human may try and have awareness of everything but this is mainly just to control everything around them. They may budget, have a detailed timetable/diary, be involved in everyone's lives and schedules, micromanage every detail - all as a way of maintaining control of their lives. They also make it their business to know everything about everything that is going on in the world. Again, this is a way of trying to control the world - the more they know, the more they can arm themselves and be ready to react.
In 4D we tend to be very blaze about life. We let the angels take care of things for us, we don't focus on the details, we try and go with the flow and let the universe guide us. This is a great step.
But in 5D as a New Human it is important to live with conscious awareness of everything that is going on WITHIN US. We don't worry about what is going on in the world outside of us but we must have awareness of every tiny detail of our being, right down to the atoms that make up the body. We can take this step by step and pull apart bits and pieces at a time eg our emotional body and all the unprocessed stuff we have.
Every action we take is with conscious awareness. This doesn't mean we need to know all the answers of why we do things, we just need to be aware that we are doing something because it is exactly what we want to do in that moment. We are aware of our wants and needs, we don't overthink or rationalize them, we just know what is best for us. We are aware of our bodies and when our bodies need rest and when they need to stretch or exercise. We are aware of what foods feel best to the body each day and have such acute awareness of the body and its needs that we check in every moment as to what it needs - we don't just eat or do something because of habit or because it felt good yesterday, we are aware of what our needs are in this moment.
When we are aware of ourselves and our needs it makes it much easier to interact with others and be of service to what other people need from us. We can bring conscious awareness to the problems of others and help them much more efficiently just through our focus.
Spiritual Evolution is about raising our consciousness - this could be seen as being more conscious and aware of ourselves and our place in the universe, which takes us to another level or dimension of being.
When we shine our light of awareness on something that has never been thought about before we are like explorers, discovering things about the universe that have never been discovered before. Our conscious awareness is like a big spotlight that shines and uncovers what was once unknown and in darkness. Our consciousness light remains behind in this space so that others can more easily discover what we now know, and this helps the whole of humanity raise their consciousness as a collective. Each person who discovers this new thing will feel like they are the first ones to make the discovery, only because no one told them about it, they felt like they came up with it themselves, but then find out others have written about this at about the same time they discovered it. This is how collective evolution works. We are helping each other every time we bring awareness to something within us or in our universe.
When we are in 3D we try and control every outcome. Even in 4D we use the law of attraction and only focus on what we want and don't entertain the possibility of any other outcome.
But in 5D, as a New Human we are OK with every outcome.
It may seem counter productive but what it does is open you up to the unlimited field of possibilities.
If you are a trying to become a parent you only want a healthy baby - sounds logical right, but by not being OK with every other possible outcome (other than a healthy baby) then you have pockets of fear and resistance inside of you which can actually block you from getting what you desire.
If you are going to an audition for a part, or a job interview then you are of course hoping to get the part or the job. When you are so tightly focused on the very narrow and specific thing that you think you want (the part or the job), it drops your vibration and creates a limited energy in all areas of your life.
This is a concept that can be very difficult to grasp for a human mind, but I believe it is very important to master in order to move from 3D/4D to 5D.
In 3D, control, determination, focus, striving, planning etc does work, but it is bloody hard work.
In 4D, we can make our manifesting a little easier by using the law of attraction and positive thinking.
In 5D we use no effort, no force, no striving or planning, instead we use the power of the universal flow. And to tap into the maximum potential and power of this flow, we need to let go of what we think we want, because at the stage of transition from 3D/4D to 5D, we are still using our mind to determine what we would like from life. This is a really tricky transition because we still have deep desires, wants and needs for our life, and it is difficult to just ignore these.
If you have something that you want (a new job, a certain amount of money, a relationship, a specific outcome) focus on it. Now tell yourself that you are OK without this in your life. Imagine not having this thing, relationsip, outcome. Say to yourself I am OK. And really FEEL how it feels to not have what you desire. When you get to a point where you know and feel that you will be OK, then you have released any fear about not having this. You have then opened up to the unlimited possibilities of the flow.
Some people may say that this now opens you up to something even better, but it is even more expansive than this.
Our human minds are so entrenched in society's view of what a human should want, need and get. These reminders surrounds us in every moment through marketing. It is not easy to let go of this. But it doesn't mean you will never have nice things - you will, just not in the way that your human mind could ever predict or even imagine.
When you are OK with every outcome you will find peace. The kind of deep inner peace that allows so much goodness to just flow to you effortlessly. And it is not just material goodness, it is all sorts of opportunities and experiences, moments of joy and delight and synchronicity that a human mind could not even imagine.
Being OK with every outcome does not only apply to future things that you are desiring, it also applies to the past.
If you have regrets in your past that come up to "haunt" you from time to time, try this next time you think of them. Tell yourself that you are OK with every outcome - including the outcome that happened, and any other outcome that you can think of. Say you are OK with the outcomes and then imagine these outcomes playing out, and then FEEL how this feels. Be OK with the outcome that you regret, and FEEL OK. It is important to deeply connect with the outcomes and instead of feeling the fear, regret, embarrassment, shame etc, just feel OK which is a neutral, shrug your shoulders kind of feeling. You should feel some sort of energy release or peaceful feeling, if not, then try again next time this event from your past comes into your awareness. It may take a few layers and a few tries to reach the place of acceptance and peace.
Being OK with every outcome does NOT mean you will attract these "unwanted" or "undesirable" outcomes into your life (at the 2/3D level it might but at 3/4/5D levels it doesn't). Instead it allows your soul to use the power of the universal flow to create the experiences that are born from this higher level of consciousness. There are no limits. And so the human mind cannot narrow or limit the experiences that the New Human can now have access to.
Being OK with every outcome does create a very neutral space within you which does take a bit of getting used to. The neutral space seems to lack joy, and the ups and downs of the emotional body which are very much 2D/3D characteristics. But with practice you may find the incredible peace and contentment with the present moment that comes from this neutral space, and start to seem amazing opportunities start to materialise in your life.
Sometimes we get caught in the trap of spiritual entitlement. We believe for awhile that just because we are becoming aware, have woken up from the 3D matrix and are doing all the "right things" processing our past, that we somehow have a superpower and are superior to other humans and therefore we deserve more than them.
This is a trap that most of us go through at some stage and is pretty normal. We look at the kick ass humans and quite frankly we get angry - why do they have this cool stuff that we don't. Why do they accomplish stuff that we don't. And we can start to think about setting more goals and trying harder and making sacrifices and becoming more successful.... and then just watch and feel your vibration lower!!
It can be really difficult transitioning from the state of knowing the law of attraction (4D) to just being in the present moment (5D) and not having goals, but instead just actioning soul desire in the present moment.
Most 3D humans need to plan and strive and set goals. They try and control life, try and do the right thing and expect to be taken care of (entitlement) by governments etc. Then they realise they can create their own life and can think positive thoughts and attract the life they want (4D). This is all good progress.
But in 5D we cannot use 4D techniques. When we let go of the planning, the vision boards, the affirmations and goal setting we can feel as if we are going backwards, and will never create the life that we know is possible.
As a New Human life flows so easily. Opportunities come to you, you dont have to seek them out. I have so many examples in my life where this is starting to hapen.
For example, a couple of years ago I wrote an ebook. About a year ago I picked it up again and edited it, added photos and then put it down again. It just felt like such hard work to market this book and release it into the world. The 3D human part of me beat me up, told me I was a lazy failure and that I should push and strive and set some goals. But I didnt listen, I just put it aside knowing (or maybe hoping and trusting) that it wasn't time. A few months ago I was approached with an invitation to participate as a speaker in an online Summit which included promoting a product or service. The topic I was to speak on was a perfect fit for my ebook. Effortlessly here was a chance to market my book and release it and it was super fun and easy and exactly the right market I wrote the book for!
Things just seem to fall into place.
In 3D we would call them synchronicities, but as a New Human it is just the way we live every day. This is the universal flow of life that we are tapping into and living from.
In 3D our universal flow of life is fairly bumpy. You could imagine it as the flow of a stream or river and the human us is in our boat rowing towards our goal. Because the river is so bumpy and turbulent it can take a lot of effort to row towards the goal. The human must strive, set goals, make sacrifices, plan, strategise, use others, and force themselves sometimes in order to reach their goal which is on a certain part of the river bank. If they were to let go of the oars they would be thrown this way and that, have no direction and be quite lost. So the effort required in 3D is justified. The river (universal flow of life) is so bumpy and turbulent because the 3D human is connected strongly with the consciousness of humanity (3D matrix, fear etc). Each rapid in the river, each wave, each undercurrent is another event happening outside of them in their environment, but because they are so invested in this outside life they feel it all.
In 4D it is a little easier to reach our goals on the side of the river by using the law of attraction, positive thinking and intuition we can lessen the bumps and turbulence in the river and get to our goals a little easier and maybe more quickly as well.
When we can disconnect from the world, unplug, go within and live by the beat of our own inner drum, then our universal flow of life (our stream/river) becomes calm. We are not influenced by what is going on around us, we don't react or feel the effect of each wave, we can live according to our own flow and we are in 5D.
So a 5D human can stop rowing. They don't need to strive or work hard or sacrifice to get to their goal on the side of the river bank. Instead the 5D human (New Human) lets their universal flow lead them to the opportunities, it is effortless, fun and so easy.
The key to becoming a New Human is to process all of our human stuff
Most new age spritual seekers will try and find shortcuts to this, and some of the bypass techniques will work for a short time, but eventually we all have to face and feel all of our past experiences (good and bad, uncomfortable, and joyful). The soul wants to collect all experiences and it can't do that until we have fully felt them all. And so we are led and guided over and over again to similar experiences until we surrender and feel what we must feel. And it is never as bad as what we think it will be!
Many years ago I was having a particulary emotional day. I remember tapping into something that I had hidden deep within me. Crying and fearful I recognised that this emotion or feeling or belief (whatever you want to call it) was something I desperately wanted to hide from the world (and myself) and that I would rather die than fully face and feel this. I had been suicidal in the past and so recognised that feeling of hopelesness and inner torment and pain, and as it was coming up out of me in that moment I felt ready to acknowledge it. I saw what it was, I heard what that belief was, I felt the shame, the hurt, the heartbreak and then it was gone. I felt like a ton of bricks had been lifted in that instant, and I felt amazing. Moments after this happened I could not recall what the feeling/belief was, I still can't. I can remember the process but not the actual thing that I had spent most of my life burying deep within me so fearful of ever feeling this or allowing anyone else to know it was there inside of me. It must have taken me so much energy to bury this thing.
I can't remember it now because I have processed it.
Once we have processed something the soul absorbs it. The feeling or thought is no longer part of our "human", it belongs to the soul, and this is how our soul evolves. Unprocessed thoughts and emotions just hang around our human causing all sorts of issues. They are like blocks or bubbles of energy which weigh down the physical body, cause physical pain and symptoms, and they create loops of patterns of behaviour which keep us stuck.
Unfortunately our society raises us to avoid expressing certain feelings - to suck it up and get on with things. And so we do, we keep our anger hidden within, we keep our grief bottled up and we even keep our deepest desires and longings buried deep within us. All of this is just wanting to be seen felt and heard.
If we don't process our "stuff" then it just hangs around, we may even try and "throw" it towards someone else and see if they can deal with it for us, or we distract our selves with such busy lives that we don't allow space for anything else to come into our awareness. We try and do anything we can to NOT FEEL.
This is pretty normal human behaviour.
In order to become a New Human and evolve we MUST process all of this. Life will show you what to process and when. The opportunities will present themselves in perfect timing for you if you are just willing. It will be hard, but never as hard as what you think it will be. And even if you think you have "dealt" with something it may come back again and again so you can see it and feel it from a different angle - this is often necessary so we can process layer by layer.
Every time we process our emotions, feelings and past events, we are helping the whole of humanity process theirs as well. The less of this unprocessed "floating" energy that there is in the world, the less drama, torment, instability, abuse and craziness there will be in the world. We focus inwards and take care of our stuff, and the rest of the world does the same.
New Humans who have processed all of their stuff will then be able to instantly process new emotions, events and interactions at the time that they happen creating an authentic and peaceful way of living.
Sometimes in meditation or moments of stillness I have felt the deep peace of nothing. No thoughts, no actions, no body - just me as spirit.
Recently I had a different experience where I woke in the morning and felt a very different peace. It ran deep, it ran through my body, my thoughts, my everything. I was very present in my body (I had not travelled out of my body to feel this peace) but felt no tension or pain or heaviness in my body at all. I was fully aware of my body and felt the most delightful lightness. But most importantly there was a nothing, completely empty feeling, but full up at the same time.
When I have felt peacefulness before there still seems to be a motor running somewhere.... like I am sitting in the car feeling very peaceful, with nowhere to go or be, just happy to sit and feel at peace, but the motor of the car is still running, ready to go. There always seems to be that background noise going on somewhere in my being which isn't a problem but I had never noticed it before until I experienced the absence of it.
This time there was not even a motor running in the background. There wasn't any preparation or waiting feelings, or physical body processes going on, there was just nothing.
I wonder whether that motor running in the background before, was the "old human" part of me, happy to switch off and rest but still present, still humming, still waiting for its turn to take over the show.
But in the absence of my old human self, what was left was just the soul me. The pure authentic self without all the heaviness of the human weighing it down.
For the last year or so I have been very focused and interested on physical body changes that occur due to the embodiment of soul (new human/5D) process which I see as a major part of spiritual evolution.
Some people call these "ascension symptoms" or "spiritual flu", but it goes a lot deeper than just feeling a bit "off" when we are adjusting to some new energy.
Besides changes in memory and thinking patterns, he main areas where I have been feeling change lately is my nervous system, ears and eyes. There are also phases of sleepiness, fatigue and high energy as well as much general physical discomfort at times while the body adjusts and evolves.
I did some Soul Writing to try and get some clarity on what I had been feeling lately which I thought might be worthwhile sharing in case others are feeling this as well.
I have this anxiety-like shaking or nervousness inside of me. It comes on suddenly. It feels like my whole body should be shaking but it isn’t. When I hold out my hand it is steady. When I close my eyes and tune in within I feel strong and stable but there is this buzzing which feels like nerves or shaking. Maybe it is coming up from deep within me rather from outside of me, which is why I do not shake. What is going on?
Adjustments to energy. Vibrations are exactly that, vibrating energy which does feel like a shaking.
But it starts from deep within you and may never end up shaking your body
It doesn’t have to end in your skin. And it doesn’t have to filter through everything. It is the nervous system of your body which is mostly impacted.
Because the nerves control the body. They control the electric impulses that cause the body to move.
This is the soul now controlling the body to move via your nervous system. It is the soul shaking and vibrating. Getting your attention so you can focus and help initiate the transfer of soul to body.
When I focus my attention on this it feels smoother and stronger like the opposite of anxiety. I feel like I have super powers flowing through me now.
The nerves in my eyes adjust. There is power behind my sight now. And a stronger purpose for what this physical body can see and do now.
How does this make me think differently?
There is more purpose to the thoughts and the deeds. The soul controlling the body, the soul seeing with the human eyes is different than before. Previously the soul collected the human experiences, but now the soul dictates or chooses the human experiences rather than trying to lead from afar or just collecting whatever the human decided, it is guiding by being in the drivers seat rather than the navigator in the back seat.
The soul drives the human body, it can see, feel, hear and sense everything that the body does.
I feel like there are still "3D human" thoughts.
Yes but they don’t really mean anything. The body doesn’t really listen or action them, they just float around with no where to go. They are just the last of the tape recording waiting for the tape to run out. They do no harm and are just some familiar sounds and background noise while the new operating system gets up and running.
Why do so many little distractions come up when I am going through these physical changes?
It is habit, and not knowing what to do with the new soul body. It is ok too, because while your mind is distracted and pulling you here and there, the soul can do what it likes integrating without your mind interfering.
There are times to focus though and you will be informed of this. Your attention will go where it needs to. It will be loud and clear for you to hear and action. Don’t overthink because you can’t get this wrong as it is your unique experience.
How much of this is similar to what other are and will be going through.
It is very similar. The length of the process will be different for everyone.
Some people find some processes easier than others.
Will the body look different?
From the outside no. From the inside looking out yes. It is your perception of your body that changes. When you look at your body now it is a 3d view. Only one dimensional really, the reflection in the mirror which is subjective and dependent on the quality of the mirror and the lighting. It is not a real reflection. But it is the perceived reflection and perception of your body. Now your body awareness will be different. There will be a new emphasis on how it feels and functions rather than looks. You will not even compute looks. There will be no judgement or good or bad on looks. It simply looks how it does. Others will not notice how it looks either, there will be a presence that is noticed rather than the snapshot of looks.
So do not judge the looks of the body. This will hold the process back. Let the body unravel and change as it needs to. If weight changes or function changes for awhile just go with it. Things will settle down and find their greatest strength and flow. You will notice that with a slight change in posture or position you can feel new or more energy flowing through your body. This is important. Keep experimenting and letting the energy flow and find its way.
Is there a process or steps or anything we can do to help this process or bring greater awareness to what is happening?
Just know that a flip is happening in the soul body relationship. The human was allowed to drive the human experience, now the soul is having a turn at driving the human experience. It will take some time for the soul to get its drivers license and make up its own way of driving so there will be an adjustment time where the human and the soul share the driving of the physical body. This will be disorientating at times. And confusing. But just be gentle with yourself, don’t expect too much, be patient and grow with your new experiences and capabilities. You won’t have the same experiences or go to the same places that the human did. You will have much greater navigation skills and abilities and knowledge of possible places to go with the soul driving the physical experience. This is exciting as well as new and daunting at times.
It is important to tune into what feels good and right to you. No judgement here, just a flow of what feels good. If being in nature feels like it helps smooth out this process and keep you sane then do this. If staying in bed all day helps then do this. If going about your “normal” activities as if everything is normal, then do this. There are no rules here. Eat what you are guided to and this could change every day. Rest when you are guided to and exercise when you are guided to. Tune in every day. Because your soul/body is changing so rapidly its needs will also change. Live consciously with greater awareness. When you do things from a human habit point of view, it may not serve the new soul body. So tune in and notice everything. Don’t overthink, just feel and adjust where necessary.
It can be like big game, of guess what the soul body needs today!
Do not be concerned by any of the happenings. Just accept, notice, adjust where necessary, and nurture and love every step. This has never been done before in a human body. You are the evolutionary front runners, the explorers of the new frontier, the way showers. Others will learn just by being in your presence.
There is no race. There is no end goal or finish line, it is a continual process of growth, embodiment and experiences.
We will truly be a soul having a physical experience but most importantly a soul driving a physical experience, creating the experiences at the front line, processing them and growing as a soul and as source.
Instead of dying and then the soul reviewing all the experiences from the physical life which are filtered to source, we will be doing this in real time as they happen. There is no need to die so that the soul and source can collect the experiences of the human experience. It will all happen in real time (even though there is no such thing as linear time from a soul perspective) but there is instant feedback and processing.
In order to become a soul body (new human/5D human) we need to process all our past experiences up until this point. Which gives the soul a clean slate to enter the physical body and drive the experiences. An old human would process all this after death and then return to another body and the cycle would continue. But now we can transform, heal and evolve in this body and continue without the cycle, just the perfect soul-body interface for processing all experiences as they happen.
This gives the soul body much more freedom of choice as to the experiences it wants. It is not dependent on repeating loops of past unprocessed emotions and experiences that then limit the human experiences. It is like living without fear, but in a more powerful way. There won’t be unnecessary experiences, there will be strategic specific soul driven experiences.
This is how a new human lives.
For want of a better word, I am going to call awesome 3D humans who have great relationships, rewarding careers, are successful, have money, travel, enjoy life and are fun to be around "Kick-ass Humans".
When we look at the life of a Kick-ass Human, outwardly they seem to have it all. This can inspire us to want to have a life like theirs. When I look deeper, under the illusion of the 3D outward life, it often isn't so great. When we are inspired by them to live like them, we are just looking at the outward perspective of what a "best" 3D human life can look like. We decide on this based on conditioning, judgement by others, marketing and what we think we should live life like.
This is why becoming a New Human can be so confusing and so difficult because we are constantly bombarded by conditioning of what a human life should look like and it is hard to break out of this and work towards something that we have no friggin clue about. All that we do know is that we have a pull inside of us that is nudging us to find something else, something new, something that hasn't been lived before.
Just because I enjoy spending time with kick-ass humans doesn't mean I should strive to be one. Kick-ass humans aren't bad, they are great, but I just don't think I am meant to be one. I tried it once and on the outside I had a great life, but on the inside I was a train-wreck!
I don't know what the New Human life will look like on the outside (how it will be projected to the rest of the world), and I really don't care too much, because I do know that it will feel amazing from the inside.
So don't fall into the trap of thinking that a 5D life will be just like an improved version of a "kick-ass" 3D life, because maybe it won't. Maybe it will look like a life that hasn't been lived before, or maybe it will look just the same as a 3D "kick-ass" life but feel much better from the inside. At the moment all we can do is theorize and get clues as we travel along this path, but limiting ourselves to what we "think" it will be like may mean we miss out on the expansiveness of what is possible in the human body for the first time ever.
There is nothing more important that we need to do but come into alignment with our true soul selves, and BE this in our every day lives. When we are aligned, we KNOW WHO WE ARE and we can then BE WHO WE ARE.
When we know who we are, then we are empowered with this knowledge. We are then confident to bring this true self into the physical world. When we try and hide our true selves to "fit in" then our lives do not flow as smoothly and we cannot reach the heights of consciousness that match our soul selves.
The only place we need to "fit in" is with our inner selves.
So many layers of our outer selves must be stripped away so that our inner selves can stand at the forefront of our existence - this is hard work - this takes commitment and a willingness to lose EVERYTHING in order to gain more than we could ever imagine. To be our true selves in this world is to live in a heaven on earth. It is like dying and being reborn again. Our past life will literally be our former selves in this body, in this lifetime.
Even though this is hard work it is the best work imaginable. We are the bosses every step of the way and we create the rules every step of the way - this is fun! But we do have to make a commitment and sign that invisible contract to our divine soul selves that says no matter what, I will not ignore you any longer, I will not deny your existence and bury you under a to do list, obligations or fake priorities.
Moving away from the 3D reality it becomes clearer that we live in what I like to call "timelines". they are like trains travelling in a certain direction, they are the flow of our life, they are like tunnels connecting to our experiences.
When not in 3D our wants and needs seem more simple. Because we are living in the present moment, have no constant thoughts running through our heads, we simply have directives from soul, or thoughts from our higher mind which are relevant to the present moment.
Because of this simplicity we don't focus on as many things. We don't have as many wants. it feels easier therefore to make headway into our future, it feels simpler.
When I imagine my flow or my timeline I see this big strong tunnel opening up in front of me. This is specific for a certain desire/want/need. When I start to feel scattered or unsure I look at this tunnel and I see lots of spaghetti looking tunnels attaching to my big strong tunnel, which are diverting my attention to other things I might desire/want/need. They are 3d distractions pulling me away from my soul desire and soul flow. If I "clear" these spaghetti tunnel distractions I immediately feel calm and sure once again that I am on the way.
At the end of this timeline tunnel there are feelings or desires (in 3D we would call these plans or goals). I imagine these feelings and they are quite simple really - they involve the sun on my skin and driving on the beach for example. If I start going into too much detail about how these might happen, then the spaghetti distraction tunnels start to show up pulling me off track. So I just imagine the sun on my skin, and I imagine driving on the beach. No details needed. The feeling is there, this is already happening, this has already happened.
The tunnel of my timeline is not in linear time, all that I desire from my soul has already happened in some way shape or form. I just wait for the physical to manifest/show up just as it has already happened.
The soul wants to experience things. This is where our desires come from.
They are not ego and society wants and needs. We do not reach these desires from comparing our lives with others and trying to fill in the deficits. We reach the desires by having a deep and quiet commune with our inner selves. We imagine what lights us up, what brings us joy - as this is the language of the soul.
Try it... imagine that money/time/location is no object - what would you desire more than anything right now to be experiencing. You may be surprised how simple the want or need is.
As a spiritual evolutionist I see and live in a different reality to most people.