The peaceful nothingness of soul

Sometimes in meditation or moments of stillness I have felt the deep peace of nothing.  No thoughts, no actions, no body - just me as spirit.

Recently I had a different experience where I woke in the morning and felt a very different peace.  It ran deep, it ran through my body, my thoughts, my everything.  I was very present in my body (I had not travelled out of my body to feel this peace) but felt no tension or pain or heaviness in my body at all.  I was fully aware of my body and felt the most delightful lightness.  But most importantly there was a nothing, completely empty feeling, but full up at the same time.  

When I have felt peacefulness before there still seems to be a motor running somewhere.... like I am sitting in the car feeling very peaceful, with nowhere to go or be, just happy to sit and feel at peace, but the motor of the car is still running, ready to go.  There always seems to be that background noise going on somewhere in my being which isn't a problem but I had never noticed it before until I experienced the absence of it.

This time there was not even a motor running in the background.  There wasn't any preparation or waiting feelings, or physical body processes going on, there was just nothing.

I wonder whether that motor running in the background before, was the "old human" part of me, happy to switch off and rest but still present, still humming, still waiting for its turn to take over the show.

But in the absence of my old human self, what was left was just the soul me.  The pure authentic self without all the heaviness of the human weighing it down.

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